So, as of today, it has been one month since I started T. Since last month was a short month, the 4 week and 1 month mark happened to land on the same day. I skipped writing a post last week as I wasn’t feeling like there was much change between the 2 week and 3 week mark. That being said, when I compared the pictures, measurements, and voice recordings I took today and compared them to the pre-T ones, I finally started to feel like there’s some progress being made. In this post will be the pre-T/first day, 1 week, and 1 month recordings of most the stuff. But where should I start…
I guess I’ll go with my voice recordings first, since that’s the thing I’m looking forward to changing the most. It isn’t a huge change, but after taking several recordings attempting to use the same tone of voice as I did for my day 1 recording and all of them coming out noticeably lower, I don’t think I can deny that there has been any change there anymore. I still sound distinctly female, but not quite as much like a small child as I used to sound. You’ll see what I mean when you listen to the recordings.
I’ve made some good progress physically as well. I’ve gained about 2.5 lbs from my pre-T weight. Gained a surprising 0.75″ in my neck and chest, 0.5″ in my shoulders and biceps, 0.25″ in my forearms and thighs, calves stayed the same, and I lost 0.25″ in my waist and 0.5″ in my hips. Most of those gains, not surprisingly, were more recent and the changes between pre-T and the 1 week mark were negligible, so will just keep it at comparing pre-T and 1 month. Here are some photos, pre-T on the left, 1 week in the middle, and 1 month on the right.
The things I notice the most are I seem to have more ab definition (or maybe it’s my imagination because I want more defined abs so badly, lol), as well as growth in my shoulders and back. As always, it’s hard to tell what is difference in lighting/position in which I’m standing and what is genuine changes taking place. For a little while I thought I was starting to get a bit of a muffin top going on, but I noticed when I poke at my sides, they are surprisingly firm, rather than the squishiness I would have expected if it was as much fat as I thought. Not to say there isn’t a layer of fat there still, but I think there’s been some growth in my obliques, which also attributes to the it looking like there’s some overall ab definition developing there. Again, I might be seeing things just because I really want to and there might not be as much definition as I think. Even if that’s the case, then at least for the first time pretty much ever, I’m having a more positive perspective when I look at my stomach, which is just as good as there being actual definition there. I’ve had a lot of very negative feelings in regards to my stomach for a very long time, so either way it’s a nice change of pace to feel a bit better about myself when I look in the mirror. I have also been getting more and more comments about looking “jacked” when I wear tank tops lately (such as in the pictures below… which is with a sports bra, by the way, no binder), so I know there has to be some growth going on in my arms, shoulders, and upper back if others are noticing things. This has been making tank tops my favorite shirts to wear these days since they show off the one part of my body that I’m actually really happy with. I’ve been starting to take pictures of myself in some of my shirts so I can record the changes in how they fit as I continue to grow.
I think that pretty much covers all the big changes over the last month that are T related. For those that were wondering, I did finally hear back from the pulmonologist a couple weeks ago about the ground glass nodule in my lungs. The second CT scan showed that it hadn’t gone away as hoped, which means it wasn’t just the remnants of the upper respiratory infection that I had not long before the first CT scan. The good news is that it is stable. I just have to get it checked annually so they can catch it if it ever starts growing. The doctor seemed as if it wasn’t something to be too concerned about as things are right now, but should definitely make sure I keep an eye on it. I’ll bring it up, along with the potential thyroid stuff, to whoever my new doctor ends up being whenever I get in. New insurance starts up in a couple weeks so getting a new doctor isn’t too far off.